I found this notebook
in my shoebox today.
These thoughts began at a small desk in an old apartment in Cambridge with one window.
I was the most alone I've ever been.
A new world with unfamiliar faces.
I didn't know a single person.
I didn't have a single friend.
But I had meaning.
Jodorowsky changed me.
It was the first time ART made me SEE.
I felt so alive! So hungry!
Warrior's spirit blood
surging through me.
This was my first experience of genesis
This was the first time I sought to create meaning
When I decided to pursue the WHY NOT's of life and not the WHY's.
I don't know what's in this notebook
but I do know that it is ferocious
and free
.
This is the story of a soul and a spirit
born in a world with seven suns
and a desert that never ceases to burn the soles of your feet.
I was alone.
And I wasn't scared.
I was filled with fire.
But this fire was mortal
and it belonged to this Earth
and its unforgiving gravity.
This is the story of a phoenix who has not yet grown wings
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L E T ' S F U C K I N G B E G I N.
I T I S A U G U S T 2 0 1 4. T H E W O R L D I S A N E W. M U D & V I S C O U S S O I L.
T H E E A R TH I S R AW + B A R R E N. W H E R E W O U L D Y O U L I K E T O G O F R O M H E R E ?
T H E A I R I S D R Y, T H E W I N D S C A R RY K N I V E S. I T I S R U T H L E S S, M E R C I L E S S -
L I F E D O E S N O T B E L O N G H E R E.
T H I S I S F I R S T L I G H T.
T H E S U N I S T H E E N T I R E S K Y.
T H E H E A T S E E P S T H R O U G H Y O U R G O G G L E S.
Y O U R G L O V E S B E G I N T O P E E L.
S C O R C H I N G. E N D L E S S. C O N T E X T U A L - L E S S R E F E R E N C E S.
B E L G R A D E C A V E R N S + D I M - S T R I C K E N S P H E R E S.
M A Y N A R D. E N T R A N C E D . A N I M A L.
L E T ' S B E A L I V E.
I A M A L I V E !
E Y E S W I D E !
I W I L L N O T T U R N A W A Y.
E Y E L I D S R I P P E D A N D S I N G E D A W A Y
I T I S N E W.
I T I S A W A K E N I N G.
Y O U
A R E
A L I V E
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T H E T E N E R E
( L I T E R A L L Y D E S E R T / W I L D E R N E S S )
I S A D E S E R T R E G I O N I N T H E S O U T H C E N T R A L S A H A R A.
I T C O M P R I S E S A V A S T P L A I N O F S A N D S T R E T C H I N G F R O M N O R T H E A S T E R N N I G E R
I N T O C H A D , O C C U P Y I N G A N A R E A O F O V E R 4 0 0 , 0 0 0 S Q K M ( 1 5 0 , 0 0 0 S Q M I )
.
I T S B O U N D A R I E S A R E S A I D T O B E
T H E A I R M O U N T A I N S T O T H E W E S T
T H E H O G G A R M O U N T A I N S T O T H E N O R T H
T H E D J A D O P L A T E A U T O T H E N O R T H E A S T
T H E T I B E S T I M O U N T A I N S T O T H E E A S T
A N D T H E B A S I N O F L A K E C H A D T O T H E S O U T H.
T H E C E N T R A L P A R T O F T H E D E S E R T ,
T H E E R G D U B I L M A ,
I S A D U N E S E A
C E N T R E D A T A P P R O X I M A T E L Y
1 7 ° 3 5 ' N 1 0 ° 5 5 ' E
L E A R B R E D U T E N E R E
W A S A S O L I T A R Y A C A C I A T R E E T H A T W A S O N C E C O N S I D E R E D
T H E M O S T I S O L A T E D T R E E O N E A R T H
W I T H N O O T H E R K N O W N T R E E T O B E F O U N D
I N A 2 5 0 M I L E R A D I U S
.
T H I S D E S E R T
T H I S T R E E
T H I S D U N E S E A
.
T H I S W I L L B E T H E S E T T I N G
F O R M Y M I N D ' S
O D Y S S E Y
.